tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-57434482011-09-30T22:33:26.719+08:00Big Dreams!My daily life...Zeronoreply@blogger.comBlogger17741100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-10793469667674791372011-05-25T07:50:00.001+08:002011-05-25T07:52:45.620+08:00Post for the month of MayOpps!I realised that I was so caught up with things in life that I've forgotten to post~! Kk, this shall be my one and only post before this month is over! Going to EARC camp now, my 24th birthday is cool, oh btw, I've got into a relationship with Mildred, pray that God will watch over this relationship. And... more details of happenings when I get back from camp, have toZeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-29552083801054599342011-04-16T00:33:00.001+08:002011-04-16T00:34:51.712+08:00Desperation BandAnd that was...Just pure Ultimate... In just over 6 days, first it was hillsong, then now desperation band. Gosh I can't wait for LIFE CONCERT next thursday! Looking forward to see more ULTIMATE worship sessions. =DHeart's song invoked~Cause I need You Jesus, to come to my rescue~Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-47590290839171806922011-04-10T00:37:00.007+08:002011-04-10T00:52:54.592+08:00When disappointment arises while you serve...What will you do?I'm praying very hard actually for some of my youths now. I'm glad that my mentee is actually following up with some of the things I've taught him regarding worship leading, and it's great to see a growth and changes in him.Separate issue, sometimes I really asked myself again, should I really get bothered with others at times? I was Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-53246917483698733852011-04-05T23:26:00.005+08:002011-04-06T00:17:13.394+08:00My Ultimate for ChristHad never felt this great for such a long time.Was pondering over the questions since Sunday, and managed to have some answers along the way, my devotions for today is really great, sharing it below later, and really brought me back to the right track, perfect timing, the correct heart for leading worship for CF fellowship night just now.Having a good musician solved many ofZeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-56790402040903922912011-04-04T23:03:00.000+08:002011-04-04T23:05:48.075+08:00Cry in my heartThere's a cry in my heartFor Your glory to fallFor Your presence to fill up my sensesThere's a yearning againA thirst for disciplineA hunger for things that are deeperCould You take me beyond?Could You carry me through?If I open my heart?Could I go there with You?For what do I haveIf I don't have You, Jesus?What in this lifeCould mean any more?You are my rockYou are my gloryYouZeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-40994567412011738602011-04-03T22:22:00.004+08:002011-04-03T23:07:26.320+08:00How strong is one's faith?Reflection again.I went into a slump these two days as I really ponder over God's standard on my own, and also the way I've acted like especially these few months(since November or December maybe?). Masking my own hurt, and hiding from the immediate reality with having a don't care/slack/or even the "stargazing list" attitude(And ironically, I really really love Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-15535577465258318342011-04-02T23:32:00.001+08:002011-04-02T23:33:18.522+08:00Good enough?There was so many "ohhhhhhhhh" (longest oh theory again)And so much reflection that I've done today, which made me realised again,I'm still not good enough.Work on it Yan Wei, work on it...Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-40599012779953259902011-03-29T16:53:00.005+08:002011-03-29T22:58:02.846+08:00Should wedding be made grand?A topic that I should have written on long ago. (For the sake of easier understanding, I've chose to use the ESV bible instead of the KJV bible for this write up)As I was talking with a few friends about the topic on wedding and such, I was later being smith down badly by a non-believer because of my own opinion that I didn't really want a grand wedding(As what the Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-44181292587668133152011-03-14T00:12:00.003+08:002011-03-14T00:18:48.824+08:00Draw me close to You...Remind me dear Lord...Draw me close to YouNever let me goI lay it all down againTo hear You say that I'm Your friendA while ago, I posted this poem(Repost from a friend) on facebook for some of my youths... Yea, it speaks quite alot, and I think I could kind of reminder.The Wait Poemby Russell KelferDesperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;Quietly, patiently, lovingly, Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-28911370968606321852011-03-06T21:09:00.003+08:002011-03-06T21:17:16.716+08:00A Hundred and OneQuestions...Stumbled upon one of the videos from last year's YD camp back when I was still at Zion. Memories came flooding back to me, and from there, I went to check on the uploader, and saw many recent videos when my friends(the youths) were all at the club house chilling out as usual.After seeing that, I kind of miss them alot. It's not that I'm not happy over at BA, infact, Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-37264903067666457152011-02-19T23:45:00.002+08:002011-02-20T00:03:50.341+08:00ChillOver period of uncertainty...I was sharing once again on thursday with my thursday small room fellowship group, that I find myself chill and relax this semester... So many things I'm taking it literally in my strides.Just came back from my CG's bible study. Coming to the topic of "Knowing God". One of the points highlighted was, "Being contended"... Somethings I do really ask myself, am I Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-29890666111365210522011-02-06T22:51:00.004+08:002011-03-09T00:40:14.014+08:00OvercomeAfter the short holidayYou know after this short holiday, which started for me on Tuesday 2.30pm, with our given human nature, we just dread going back to school. I thought of it for a little while though.Then again, I felt that I'm not dreading about going to school, but instead, having this thought of uncertainty that lies ahead for myself, I close my eyes, imagine myself back at campusZeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-25110041385432512332011-01-22T07:55:00.002+08:002011-01-22T08:10:12.923+08:00The saying of Adidas, "Nothing is Impossible"Many things to be thankful for..Many things that I'm thankful to God for, way too many, one of it was Meranti Project, and people who know me very well, knows that I set aside Sunday solely for God's work, fellowship with other Christians, and basically doing stuff which are not the same as compared to the other 6 days. And hence, the workshop had Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-21705273205960104972011-01-14T22:58:00.004+08:002011-01-14T23:10:11.757+08:00Here and NowHere in this moment...So first week of school has started, and yes, it was back again to school, unusual setting and I was quite uncertain of the things this sem initially, like "What is coming our way?"Yes, back to square one like how I started off in 1st sem, alone, one Christian on a mission to preach the word or trying to at least plant this seed into the non-believers, on a Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-24940797842860031442011-01-02T23:30:00.002+08:002011-01-02T23:39:01.202+08:00Mission Statement 20111 Corinthians 13:4-134 Love suffereth long, and is kind; love envieth not; love vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up, 5 Doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil; 6 Rejoiceth not in iniquity, but rejoiceth in the truth; 7 Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things. 8 Love never Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-17713958813173706942011-01-01T23:59:00.000+08:002011-01-02T00:43:59.051+08:002011A new year, new mission.How I start the new year? I started off this year with friends by my side, literally, from 12 midnight till the next morning at 8am when we all decided to go our ways back home. We had each other's company and we know that we'll be there for each other, brothers and sisters in Christ.On every 1st Jan, images of myself, crawling back to God, of December 2007, in the Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-83699787711183178692010-12-29T23:01:00.002+08:002010-12-29T23:08:07.918+08:00What the world will never take...No matterNo matter how screwed up we felt this world is,No matter how at many times, we felt like giving up on many things in lifeNo matter what other might say, or do, hurt us, beat us down, verbally and physicallyNo matter what might come our way.What this world will never take, is You. And our identity in Christ.A little while ago I was sharing this during openZeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-60125188718786291662010-12-06T23:38:00.005+08:002010-12-06T23:59:31.984+08:00The green hill...Part 2Note, the following is not a vision(I do not know why, but when I dream, I'm able to differentiate what is vision and what is not), but rather is like what I've mentioned before, one of the 4 reasons what the dream means, this one, is a heart's desireAt the foot of the green hill, I started climbing up, towards the tree where I would always sit under to talk to God. As I Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-16728441489581031032010-12-06T00:13:00.002+08:002010-12-06T00:18:35.976+08:00Our offering...To GodYou know, the many things sometimes I disagree with my own church or mentor, but there is one thing that I agree with my mentor fully, 100%, and in fact, this is the basis that I use to measure against myself if I really had put in done what I should have done for God when it comes to leading worship in songsWas this, when we serve in the music ministry, when we are up there Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-57881462360997037872010-12-05T00:00:00.002+08:002010-12-05T00:03:21.519+08:00Post exams activities planningI realised that...I've planned my stuff back to back, then I really don't have much free time now! Next week alone is BAY camp + Maths exam, that's one week, week starting 13th December, HIGH CHANCE that I'm helping with LarkHill camp with NIE CU, and 16th sending off the china mission trip people, FOR NOW, 17th onwards is still free! Please book me early!I realised Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-36029159041866449912010-11-27T23:41:00.002+08:002010-11-27T23:47:18.746+08:00Ultimate worshipThis is superb!We did an ultimate today, no not the usual ULTIMATE, but the REALLY ULTIMATE! Kudos to Jonathan Choo(Bro of Daniel Choo), he's really the ultimate worship leader, I've never seen an arrangement for THREE GUITARS, one bass, one piano and one percussion. THREE GUITARS! It's really wow!And I had the honour to represent BAY(Youth) and BATS(Young Adult) to go up to speakZeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-69506236225822857612010-11-26T07:31:00.002+08:002010-11-26T07:32:48.022+08:00Irresistible GraceKeep callingYou know, how much I want to run away from God, how much I want to try to put Him out of my life for a while, to see if I can do things without His will or judgement, but ultimately, He just keeps calling me back. just keep pulling me back to HimCapture meZeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-84983366139174607012010-11-25T12:20:00.004+08:002010-11-25T14:34:55.891+08:00Thank God for Christian friends aroundOnce again.I was quite angry with God yesterday night, I was questioning over and over again, asking Him, why would He tell me the answer "Yes" at the start, why would He(Esp for the last three weeks) reaffirm me(That's she's the from the vision) when I'm starting to doubt, using those two songs again, and just to get smack in the face with a fat "No" last Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-34398816548928815202010-11-25T00:19:00.005+08:002011-03-09T00:32:27.585+08:00Unexpected phone callI really thank God.You know, at times, I do half suspect it, but I cling on too tightly, and I kept questioning and doubting, but the struggle with not questioning God about His Will still impacts me quite alot.I really thank God for this unexpected phone call from my sister in Christ, right timing I guessed, we talked about our own problems. It really took another Christian Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-71138800426578309022010-11-24T23:44:00.001+08:002010-11-24T23:46:24.738+08:00Sometimes...You know.. Sometimes, I do get very scared of the future... Really.UncertaintyZeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-33010357187216290492010-11-03T08:00:00.003+08:002010-11-03T08:15:25.490+08:00FaithFaith is the most essential aspect of true character.... It is the basic foundation of every other virtuesI was down as I woke up 30 minutes ago, those feelings of doubts, questioning God comes back again. Faith, is something I really need. I felt better, after reading April's latest entry, about this part where she wrote, "Where is your faith? Who is your God? Is your God this bird?"It Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-21151038198174132412010-11-02T22:03:00.005+08:002010-11-04T00:13:57.115+08:00The Quest for CharacterA time of reflectionYou know, the best thing about being with her, not only she teaches me(myself as being a young growing Christian) the Word of the Lord, but also things about character building, how to be a better person.Actually life has been quite empty since yesterday. Empty as in, yet again, you know back in April - June of 2009? Yes, that period, when I don't reallyZeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-43096851683993814492010-10-29T23:00:00.002+08:002010-10-29T23:14:21.953+08:00A glimpse of God's big picture!Really cool how God worksOk, firstly, about the letter, the reply was "not for now". Which was pretty cool, I really thank God for guiding me, bringing me through and those 16 days of trial for myself, is really good. And I really thank God, that He made me accept His will so willingly and easily! And on top of that, remember long time ago I used to question God Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-9754120870530201582010-10-28T17:35:00.004+08:002010-10-28T17:40:53.757+08:00Worry not about tomorrow For to morrow will worry itselfI really thank God, all the things that came my way, yesterday's stuff, saturday's tennis tournament semi final and stuff. Which made me worry less about tomorrow, really, it was really off my mind, I felt that I've more things in my life to worry about, and instead of worrying about the things that God has already decided, putting in mind Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-75770688680075603082010-10-28T12:10:00.007+08:002010-10-28T12:18:53.364+08:00RemindedLast nightHad a heart to heart talk with her and one other at her hall all the way till 1am in the morning. Was feeling down and sharing with her the difficulties I faced with some non-believers(That is another story altogether)I saw that again, I was reminded why I like her, why I was so attracted to her.It was not because she's pretty, or friendly and out going she is, not even the Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-55039964685184977872010-10-24T20:24:00.002+08:002010-10-24T22:12:53.709+08:00A letter to my future selfI realised I needed to type this...As I was having many thoughts in my head, the thought of me confessing to her in 5 days' time, really kills me, literally.Initially I was complaining to God, "God, so many days! God can you make the day come faster?" And now, I fear, I feel the anxiety, tension, worry about the future. Every single thought came to my mind. And I know Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-90928507843365590952010-10-23T01:30:00.003+08:002010-10-23T01:32:24.635+08:00The ultimate question againAnd now...I would like to ask this question to myself and all my readers out there...If God were to ask you a question, what would it be?For myself, what I think God will ask me is, "My dear child, how have you used your life for me?"Something to ponder about. Hope to receive some response(About this post) over my DEAD tagboard. HAHA! Please let me know your response toZeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-68505364838621744762010-10-22T11:50:00.004+08:002010-10-23T01:14:19.622+08:00God's lessonI really thank God that God chooses to teach me NOW, and not LATERWhat happened? Everyone knows I'm good in maths, so the first maths test on tuesday(15% weightage). I finished it in 20minutes, and checked ONCE only, handed in and left the exam hall 30 minutes before test ended. I walked out feeling proud of myself, able to score full marks(Total of 40)And when I got back my test Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-23737831507482945902010-10-17T00:40:00.002+08:002010-10-17T01:03:11.129+08:00Seek Ye First The Kingdom Of GodAnd His Righteousness...Was thinking through and through. And I really thank God I have people around me to keep me accountable, people around me to give advise on what I should do, and I really thank God for them.It had just turned Sunday over minutes ago, and boy, it's going to be the longest 12 days ever. Remember the letter? On many instances esp on Thursday Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-62281025673017228692010-10-13T23:43:00.004+08:002010-10-13T23:46:52.810+08:00A long letterThis will be interesting..This is crazy, I've just(afternoon) written the longest letter I've ever written in my life! It has to be the funniest/craziest 'love letter'/confession letter with alot of referrences to God and Christ in it. Seriously, I just can't wait to see the reaction. HAHA!But let everything I do/we do, be centered around Christ.=DZeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-26854835034423391572010-10-05T23:33:00.004+08:002010-10-05T23:56:00.721+08:00This time round...I've been consistently reminding myselfDon't look at a sister in Christ as a potential.Don't have high hopes.Don't question God's sovereignty.Don't assume that she's the one from the vision.So yeah, I'm not going to have any high hopes again.. Just a reminder to self. But it does ache...All that I am, all that I have...Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-16137757381895656242010-10-04T22:36:00.009+08:002010-10-23T01:08:40.670+08:00In God's perfect timingThis has to be God's willI have no idea why, but then suddenly a friend and I had lunch together last week, she suddenly asked about my testimony of salvation, it got me thinking again. And somehow I ended up in the counselor's training for this coming Friday's outreach.(It's God's will btw, how I ended up the training is a long and impromptu story. Definitely God's will)Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-53559046797295708152010-09-27T22:20:00.000+08:002010-09-27T22:21:03.194+08:00I just remembered that there is TWO songs from my vision. And I've checked back and realised yes, there is TWO songs...(See 7th July 2009 entry)Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-54092587480115979432010-09-27T00:08:00.002+08:002010-09-27T00:12:28.647+08:00I have been reminded of a VisionDuring worship in song today, that song suddenly came out of the blues out of no where, reminding me the very vision that I envision one year ago. It made me smile, it made me certain, believed and trust in God more. =)*On a green hill, under the only tree, singing praises to God, then another voice was heard from the other side of the tree, long hair, she's Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-85353972371887651742010-09-20T23:14:00.008+08:002010-11-06T13:52:06.567+08:00Pharisee Me VS Liberal MeOne fine dayOn the Saturday that just passed, as I was thinking while on my way to school for GESL leaders training, I had this sudden thought, and in fact a good friend of mine did asked me this question(it's the last question later on) when I went back to Zion during my "routine trips back"But anyway, the train of thoughts that came to my mind was, what if we could timeZeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-21978689909365695342010-09-16T23:56:00.006+08:002010-09-17T23:56:56.332+08:00Continue to trust in HimNow I seeNow I finally see the struggle of a uni student. I was buried with the mountains of assignments and reading, that sometimes I just really forgot to do my other ministry works, I.E worship in song planning for my CG etc. I just totally forgot about it and I have less than a week to do it. Really felt guilty at times that I had put studies infront of these thingsButZeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-9497749082307650702010-09-11T08:47:00.003+08:002010-09-11T08:53:11.176+08:00Teach Less Learn MoreChange in styleI realised that personally for myself(Perhaps others) are more appealed to reading write ups that are short, but you can learn alot from it. As I was blog hopping between some of my church members' blog as well as my parents' church. Some of the write up(in the sense not about their daily lives, but preaching of Christ) are so lengthy(Like my own, 600words Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-38070517058405453182010-09-10T18:53:00.003+08:002010-09-10T19:54:03.486+08:00How we the Imperfects give God our best("Perfect") offering? (Actual post)Hi people~I know some of you have been waiting like, close to a month, sorry! Was really busy with school work and stuff!Back then I was opening up a question to my cell group, about how we are to give our offering, to the best of what we can, what deems in God's eye as perfect or imperfect offering(I was actually linking Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-62962245564175105452010-08-19T10:18:00.003+08:002010-09-10T19:54:20.974+08:00How we the Imperfects give God our best("Perfect") offering?This is a placeholder title, this is so to make me SHARE something(This is the next topic that I'll preach on) I've thought of which is in my head for so long, believe me, do check back in a day or two. These few days have been really tiring and mad! Work and stuff. Out~Do check back!Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-83173505485009734432010-08-01T22:19:00.002+08:002010-08-01T22:38:38.263+08:00Thank You LordWith a grateful heartWith a song of praiseWith an outstretch armI will bless your nameThank you lordI just wanna thank you lordThank you lordI just wanna thank you lordThank you lordDear readers, so sorry that I've not been blogging or posting new messages for all to read(And yes, I was watching my blog counter, many came in and I think I disappoint many as I did not have anythingZeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-41486747208962119662010-07-19T21:42:00.003+08:002010-07-19T22:49:30.060+08:00"May I take your order?"How some of us sees God like.Before message proper(As usual), updates for today(Though I did blog yesterday, and for those who haven't seen the video yet, scroll down! Watch it! =D )This week is a 4 day work week for me!! YEAH!!! Just made my payment for NTU matric card, and this friday I'll be going over for course briefing! WOOHOO! And leave approved for NIE FOC! Too badZeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-59792974744925721202010-07-18T22:28:00.003+08:002010-07-18T22:41:15.811+08:00The 6 instrumentsFirst experienceOk, today I'm just going to blog about my day/week. I left my book, Is God Obslete? in school, there are some quotes from the book which are very good! And I've thought of how to draft up a entry about it, but think it will be more complete if I do it tomorrow when I get my book backFirst time experience with 6 instruments and a full contemporary worship! It was aZeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-80149406823690564362010-07-08T21:38:00.004+08:002010-07-08T22:06:45.816+08:00Don't quit, don't give up!Christ's love compel usFor He will never let us go...Updates before my blog entry related to the title. Man! The week has been great! Was fun being in a surprised party for Grace on Tuesday! And watched Despicable Me today! Nice movie! And yes I realised contemporary christian music IS a very good medium to evangelise. I was blasting PlanetShakers 2 days ago(In prep for Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-36595657713309510792010-06-27T20:15:00.005+08:002010-06-27T21:29:14.457+08:00Whose team?Choosing sidesBefore I talk about what I want to blog on, I just want to thank God once again, for my parents. I thank God that even though they are new Christians, being Christians for only 1 year and 6 months, they are serving faithfully, reading up on His word, even though they might not know all the bible stories, but one thing that makes me really happy and proud of them, is theirZeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-72672060262446011912010-06-26T21:46:00.003+08:002010-06-26T21:51:34.848+08:00Sunday Letters, again.This time, it's differentFirst step, show concern for your fellow brothers and sisters in Christ, spur them on, encourage them. Through simple things like letters, these hand written things never failed to make me smile or cheer me up encourages me. Now it's time to give back, love God, love one another. Time to pick up your fallen friends, time to pull them up, smile and Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-4827582410438972842010-06-25T08:24:00.003+08:002010-06-25T09:30:31.582+08:00And I will be complete in You...Alot of thoughtsThere are alot of thoughts that I have, from both church camps as well as my 4 hours bus ride home from Malacca, so many things that I've thought through. But I'll try to share what I can rememberEverything that had happened in my life, is really, truly, led by God. I come to understand why God suddenly allow me to become an Elite again, to mingle Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-87178568941737599402010-06-14T21:53:00.003+08:002010-06-14T22:01:16.236+08:00Tennis runs in my bloodOh my goodnessI knew this will happen, I can't stop thinking about tennis now, I had a dream about it last night too. Today was very good! Met up with alot of old friends, esp some of the fellow Elites(And just learned about the death of one of us who she passed away in March... D= so sad, the last time I met up/played with her was during the GATHERING OF ELITES by STA lastZeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-31682895088986715712010-06-13T23:06:00.002+08:002010-06-13T23:09:22.806+08:00Walking among the Elites again.InevitableIt's inevitable, it's easy for me to grow accustom back to being with the elitist, it's easy for me to set those old rules and standards again. Just be mindful to myself, there is line to be drawn and knowing where not to cross, so that we'll be able to display the love of Christ towards my fellow Elites and hopefully finally change the way we always Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-83023374595895841102010-06-12T21:18:00.004+08:002010-06-12T21:27:28.489+08:00Good things keep coming in.I thank God for all that happened.It took me by surprised, my batch mates and I called NIE weeks/month ago, to check if any of us are due for the new intake, however we were told that due to the limited vacancy, our batch have to wait another year before admitting.Yesterday, my dad received my University enrollment package as well as agreement signing form. Yes, that Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-61287499243140229382010-06-04T11:48:00.003+08:002010-06-04T11:49:40.848+08:00This might sound crazy but...It is INSANEBut, last night, I had one of the craziest and weirdest dream.I dreamt of Michael, the archangel. This is really crazy.Out.Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-75388080944155123822010-06-01T23:47:00.003+08:002010-06-01T23:49:22.260+08:00Random thought... Can we date?Though....I still don't know you inside out,We haven't been really talking to each other much over the last few weeks(or even months!)We haven't seen each other as often as what used to be(before I started the 'Pilgrimage thingy"Just a random thought that struck my mind.Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-49931155595299399422010-06-01T22:28:00.002+08:002010-06-01T22:31:09.681+08:00Prayer requestPlease prayAs all of you have heard over the news these days, please pray for City Harvest(The church) as well as Pastor Kong Hee and Pastor Sun Ho. Please pray for their church members to continue to find strength in the Lord, and also to rely on Him to overcome this trial.I know many have asked, "Why are we praying for them?", as many of those I know were against their actions andZeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-78462508617674811492010-05-21T18:36:00.002+08:002010-05-21T18:38:21.533+08:00BreatherFinally!Kk, I am going to make this quick, YF evening service later. Finally I'm free! Book checking due date today, exams were over, and now I'm only left with meet the parents session on monday followed by 3 days of school then holidays!Kk, lots to blog about, but maybe tomorrow, firstly about my churches visits so far. Oh this sunday I'm going back to Zion, Service sunday, so yeah, Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-1066161155062632892010-05-09T17:04:00.002+08:002010-05-09T17:06:21.182+08:00Here I am...Humbled by Your majesty...Covered by Your grace so I'm free...No matter how far I want to run away from God.Sunday doesn't feel the same without going to church. Glad I did have a good time worshipping God at Orchard Road Presbyterian(morning) and Hope Church(afternoon) and having a fruitful discussion and talk with fellow Brothers and Sisters in Christ! =)Majesty!!!Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-10808232562809971272010-05-07T20:25:00.004+08:002010-05-07T21:47:51.945+08:00Almost~hmmI almost thought I might die of a heart attack, after reading something. Haha! Initially I thought it was the LONGEST "ohhhhhhh"(See my theory on the longest "ohhhhh" somewhere lost in my blog)Anyway.I took a big step out of the pearl door, looking at it from the outside, I see two big doors, open widely, the inside looks so pure, innocent, white radiant glow all around. But I decided Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-27244290829272111482010-05-02T20:30:00.002+08:002010-05-02T20:31:46.387+08:00Thank you, LordFor the trials that come my wayIn that way I can grow each dayAs I let You leadAnd I thank You, LordFor the patience those trials bringIn that process of growingI can learn to careBut it goes against the way I amTo put my human nature downAnd let the Spirit take control of all I doCos when those trials comeMy human natureshouts the thing to doAnd God's soft prompting can be easily Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-71197188446853319792010-04-23T16:24:00.005+08:002010-04-23T17:10:06.693+08:00God's given graceWe talk about being discerning...And I finally think this one thing that I should discern. I shouldn't really take everyone's opinion, or aggressive suggestion to heart, I shouldn't take all the previous 2 weeks load worth of persecution to heart either.You know what? I've been reflecting deeply about some of the words which Penuel, Zhi Wen, Rendall, Zhi Xian told me. And in factZeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-52817496353738390522010-04-20T17:31:00.005+08:002010-04-20T17:44:04.815+08:00No inspiration for write-upFor coming SundayAs some of you might know, I am leading this sunday, and I have no idea why my 3rd song was being removed. And this time round, it seems that the church office were very aggressive about it.Shucks, even e-mailed pastor about it, and you guessed it, a firm rejection with not much of an explanation of "why". For myself, the 2nd, 3rd and 4th songs are the Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-88302204120266092522010-04-16T22:58:00.002+08:002010-04-16T23:14:23.947+08:00"Spiritual Burden"Now I know the callingLast saturday, I learnt this from BATS 3(Bukit Arang Twenty Somethings 3), this is my formal AG group I guess(I will not be joining any Zion AG, but joining the one from my parent's church instead, I still can't get over with the '87' group rejects thingy)We were studying Nehemiah. What exactly was a "spiritual burden" to us? I got a glimpse of Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-34672659734666785632010-04-09T22:45:00.003+08:002010-04-09T23:19:36.067+08:00DisheartenSick and yet still...I'm very dishearten by some of the actions of peers of the same level as myself(I'm really thankful for the church leaders to actually inform me about it, but still)... Noticed the problem only occur with the youths, and not the young adults. It's really disheartening that no matter how many time you asked them to discern, and together with a like-minded team tryingZeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-39646305560792675202010-04-04T21:58:00.002+08:002010-04-04T22:07:19.558+08:00At the crossWhen You said that it is doneSunrise service with my family is nice! =D And then, it has been like more than 4 months, since the last time I actually teared during worship in songs, the new song leader, she chose the exact songs I would chosen today! And it really touched me alot! And I really see God working in her, really reminded myself how I was when I first lead worship for main Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-650563387632071242010-04-02T23:59:00.002+08:002010-04-03T00:29:44.835+08:00UpdatesI will update this post tomorrow morning, just got home from John's 21st birthday party..Summary, over the last few days, felt so spiritually filled. I thanks God for the music and whatever He had given unto us, I thanks God for giving us voices, for us to sing, and shout praises unto Him. I thanks God for instrument, for us to not only express how we feel towards Him only with our voice, Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-7103352372239260572010-03-22T14:35:00.005+08:002010-04-17T07:39:11.634+08:00Full fledged war against Satan.The one who is consistently separating God's people using differencesReflecting back. Why are there denominations? Can we really call ourselves Christian if we do not practise what we preach? Hebrews 10:24 tells us to spur one another on, Our brother and sisters in Christ. Coming from a traditional church, I actually noticed(and it's inside myself as well), we tend Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-20974049284612672242010-03-20T22:34:00.002+08:002010-03-20T22:34:58.854+08:00And God said,"My son, you are never alone"Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-87812440945488748902010-03-19T23:49:00.002+08:002010-03-20T00:10:18.533+08:00IndescribableMy heart's song...I do realise I have a heart song, be it the moment I wake up, or after reading a Christian book, somehow, I really like to express what I felt, how I felt, and how thankful I am to God, or at times when I'm down, the heart song will be different, songs will be like "Psalm 42" or "Worthy is the lamb(Hillsong)"From times when I rejoice, times when I'm thankful, times Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-42947805958315880982010-03-15T07:44:00.002+08:002010-03-15T07:46:57.890+08:00And the world will never takeThe world will never take You away!I've got a Saviour and He's living in me, Whoa!I wanna know, I wanna know You today.And You're the best thing that has happened to me,And the world will never take,The world will never take You away!Nice worship song to start the early morning~ =)Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-85727938163655190472010-03-14T22:16:00.002+08:002010-03-14T22:28:30.941+08:00Giving it all...Dear Lord,I have fallen my sister in Christ, a God-fearing girl, someone who really puts you in front of everything else she has, and things she does, and yes, alot of times I really do think I do not match up to her(That she's way too good for me). But God, I want to give it all to you, because I know you will do things according to your plans, You'll definitely do what is best Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-21438396175173613632010-03-08T21:25:00.005+08:002010-03-08T21:37:38.410+08:00Above all powers, above all kingsAbove all nature and all created thingsAbove all wisdom and all the ways of manYou were here before the world beganI remembered, all the times when I asked Jo for advice, he will always tell me this one important line"Don't think of her as a possible girlfriend, but see her as your sister in Christ first"=) How true that we all should ought to be! =DCrucifiedLaidZeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-48439375365402512492010-03-06T23:59:00.000+08:002010-03-07T00:23:19.134+08:00Time OffIt's good sometimesReally enjoyed myself together with my best friends, it has really been a while! So tiring but fun, Marche, dinner, all the jokes, and L4D2, sadly I have to leave earlier at 10.40pm just now because tomorrow is Sunday, church, had to wake up 6.30am every Sunday morning for QT. But oh well! It's for the Lord. Glad today's fun!On the bus on my way home, chanced upon the Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-79663768995490405502010-03-05T23:26:00.002+08:002010-03-05T23:40:07.792+08:00Lord I come to You...Let my heart be changed, renewedThe sweet serenity last... The other day(Yes I know I didn't blog for like super long!) somewhere last week, went to trumpet praise to find some Wiersbe's bible study material(I love his writing, is super easy to comprehend) But was unable to find any.But, something else caught my eyes, as I was browsing through, author's name starting by the Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-80281676820029579992010-02-23T18:47:00.003+08:002010-02-23T18:54:01.707+08:00Jesus Christ is my everythingRemindedWhenever I watch that skit again, it will never fail make me tear, it always reminds me, how we constantly drift away from Jesus, be conform by all the things of the world...But, He is always there, calling us to come back, trying His best to pull us back to His side. When we always thought all was lost, Jesus stepped in, gave His all, to fend us from evil, Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-25186342556192608352010-02-21T23:13:00.005+08:002010-02-21T23:22:00.768+08:00I used thought that telling a God-fearing gal about how you feel towards her is easier than the to non-believers.But apparently I was wrong.It is many times more difficult, not knowing God's will for both of you, and also, knowing that she being someone who is God-fearing, someone who place others above herself, someone who sacrifices her own desires for others. Really makes you feel, that you Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-88916164114891572402010-02-20T22:22:00.002+08:002010-02-20T22:26:00.057+08:00TryCome on Yan Wei. It isn't that hard isn't it? Just try believe in yourself, believe in God. Have faith, if you think it's really God's calling, then just follow it. Leave the rest to God. Come on you can do it. Don't avoid this time round, don't mess it up this time round. You are never alone in this, God is always with you, in everything that you do.Kk, these are somethings I need to keep Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-78240479781997002692010-02-16T09:37:00.003+08:002010-02-16T10:05:10.901+08:00InsertThis is an insert entry for my archive before I lose my write up, my actual latest post is on 14th Feb, which is just before this one*Insert, my short message(write up) during worship in song on 7th Feb, Zion Gardens main serviceIt is said, people who depend on religion are usually boasting about what they have done. However, the true Christian has nothing of which to boast! His boast is Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-39146812026731776632010-02-14T23:58:00.004+08:002010-02-16T09:37:20.083+08:00This is our GodThank you Lord, for pulling me throughI was feeling quite, sulky and sad this morning, especially so when I started to see everyone leaving almost promptly from church with their family. Whereas for me, I was left alone at home since yesterday till coming Saturday, home alone, not a single soul around(Because we don't celebrate CNY, and every year we would be out for vacation Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-71927563569345138322010-02-09T21:43:00.002+08:002010-02-09T22:23:14.633+08:00We can't run away from MUSICAfter one weekWhat have I done for the entire of last week? Remember my sort of sad/frustrating post? I sort of dun want to read His Words and refused to listen to Christian music for a week. And it was towards the end of the week, then I realised, how much I missed all these things, miss reading His Words, my occasional visits to the "Endless Archives"(Ok this is the Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-52872130093482841542010-02-01T22:20:00.002+08:002010-02-01T22:30:54.953+08:00I just miss these things and the words of encouragement it carries.. =( I miss looking forward to each Sunday, to exchange a letter like this, with words to spur on one another to continue to do God's work, and frequently, motivational and bible quotes which always keeps me smiling and keeps me moving on. =(Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-34913260706088832082010-01-31T14:28:00.004+08:002010-01-31T14:35:44.013+08:00Burnt OutI once said this to myselfI forewarn myself times and times again, on many different blog entries.That the path of being a Christian is going to be a tough and lonely one. Warned myself times and times again, I have never expected myself to burn out so early.I have so much feelings, thoughts, secrets, emotions, all bottled up inside me which I can't express. It's the same feeling as backZeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-27996483283753820012010-01-30T07:47:00.000+08:002010-01-30T07:48:16.076+08:00I was looking at my latest blog entry, and to my horror.I spelt Philippians as Philippines! Lol! What was in my head that day?! LOLZeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-22548523162112228262010-01-27T22:07:00.004+08:002010-01-30T07:47:41.446+08:00The Philippians SeriesHow wonderful our God is.Yesterday, I was doing studies on yet again, charismatic churches, but unlike the normal discussion/thoughts, it's not really about music and speaking in tongues, this time is more about doctrine. And this time the research I was doing on was "Slain by the Holy Spirit" also known as the 2nd baptism, by Charismatic people. Here's a video, I will not Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-15205362978445219122010-01-25T22:06:00.002+08:002010-01-25T22:33:10.269+08:00The best Gospel, your own lifeThoughtsI was reminded of this from Pastor Yap's msg yesterday, the first part of the message was about how Apostle Paul beseech to us to care for one another. To be create an impact on someone's life.Which reminded me of this book which I read last year on evangelism, a man asked his Pastor, "Pastor, what is the best gospel to preach to, or evangelise to?" The Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-38864762873705366512010-01-25T17:21:00.002+08:002010-01-25T22:06:07.263+08:00My Deepest CondolenceTo Aunty Angela and Family...Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound, That saved a wretch like me.... I once was lost but now am found, Was blind, but now, I see. T'was Grace that taught... my heart to fear. And Grace, my fears relieved. How precious did that Grace appear... the hour I first believed. Through many dangers, toils and snares... we have already come. T'was Grace Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-27559557649298215452010-01-20T22:06:00.001+08:002010-01-20T22:06:19.678+08:00I have finally done it, after 20 days...Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-37244115910381480112010-01-19T21:59:00.003+08:002010-01-19T22:28:35.109+08:00Still, the struggleAgainst Pride and my former self(Before Salvation)The Prideful have been trying to take over me ever since before YF camp, the initial idea of being the persecutor during camp(A locked post as requested by someone). The initial trials and tribulations I put forth to different groups of people using the old model that I originally come from, yes, Elitism. But glad my message gotZeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-38949885855816519092010-01-19T06:18:00.000+08:002010-01-19T06:19:48.192+08:00Note to self, remember never never never Impose my own Elitist rights on others.I just did several times over 10 days... This post will be edited later, because I have no time to write.Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-13807523941438965482010-01-16T09:40:00.002+08:002010-01-16T10:13:40.179+08:00The saturday morning postHere we goKk, let me start of with something. There has been something on my mind which I always want to blog out here since beginning of this week. Whenever I listen to music, I realised sometimes we taken music for granted, I really thanks God, for creating such things called music, praises be unto God for giving us voices, to sing and glorify His name! Thanks for the Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-86846574746195002142010-01-15T23:58:00.002+08:002010-01-16T00:06:29.755+08:00Friday's here~FinallyOk I'll make a quick post now, then I will do a long one tomorrow morning, my eyes are tired and I have been seeing double vision since afternoon, because the 93s came to my house to play and I didn't get much rest after work.Btw, I've received my letter for 23rd, =DAnd to my horror, 23rd is also music fest in Bishan church. Oh my goodness. It's really oh my goodness, and Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-55461889849302542262010-01-11T14:32:00.002+08:002010-01-11T15:51:39.730+08:00God is always there(Part 2)It is really amazingHow God actually works, inspire, and... somehow, indirectly gave me the answer which I have been asking Him over and over again... =)It was the second time something like this happened, I was pondering on the lyrics of the song for days, then poof! The lyrics appear during service! The last time was during Port Dickson 2009(Read November 16 2009) Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-23178187524663876482010-01-11T14:25:00.000+08:002010-01-11T14:26:27.555+08:00Because sometimes when I see, it aches a little, but it's ok...Smile and move on, =)Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-60118189279838897902010-01-09T07:46:00.007+08:002010-01-09T07:51:52.694+08:00=)After listening to my blog music,"Lord I offer my life to you"Suddenly reminds me of this scene again, in my 7th July 2009 post~July 2009's entriesSo nice, so soothing, serenity. =)As a pleasing sacrifice, Lord I offer You my lifeZeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-67879274739774757502010-01-08T23:20:00.002+08:002010-01-08T23:43:56.735+08:00All that I am, all that I have...All's wellI thank God for my new working/studying environment. I thank God for the colleagues, I thank God for everythingToday's discussion and topic during Evening Service YF is coincidentally, the same as what I've post about on the 1st jan post(the later part de, about God's answer)Like what I said before, Aunty Angela said today, God doesn't always say yes to Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-5669724225515563472010-01-06T21:54:00.002+08:002010-01-06T21:57:24.736+08:00NaturallySonozaki Wakana(Real name Asuka Rin)'s song!!ARGGHHH! Will Jan 27th Come fast?! I really want this song ALOT! So so so nice!!! Kk, school is alright, and was watching PRINCESS AND THE FROG just now, watched like 5 movies since start of December!New MoonAvatarBodyguards and AssassinsSherlock HolmesPrincess and The FrogHaha power~ I got lots to blog about actually, but shall end here, needZeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-55101518033004133842010-01-02T22:13:00.002+08:002010-01-02T22:39:42.559+08:00Under Control, under God's careThank you Lord...2 scenarios I wanna thank God for, one yesterday and one today. Let's start with yesterday'sI've volunteered to Xin Yan(Bishan) to help her with the outing for kids who are less fortunate than ourselves. She's raising funds, so I'm helping her and her friends with bringing the children out to places of interest in singapore, on 23rd Jan, these kids Zeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-43666715823598389362010-01-01T01:26:00.005+08:002010-01-01T09:01:52.134+08:002010 is hereGod is really great...The best gift he gave me for the start of 2010... Is... Family.I always have this loneliness feeling whenever I'm in church, where I see everyone's related to each other in one way or another, their parents are there, their siblings, their cousins... I was always alone, whenever they mention things like family outing or family lunch, I always felt very lonely andZeronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5743448.post-77078462333790763802009-12-28T22:35:00.004+08:002009-12-28T23:19:10.410+08:00I'll bring you more than a song...More than a song...When the music fades...And all is stripped away...And I simply come...Longing just to bring...Something that's of worth...That will bless your heart...I'll bring you more than a songFor a song in itselfIs not what you have required...You search much deeper withinThrough the way things appear,You're looking in to my heart...I'm coming back to Zeronoreply@blogger.com